Why is being a Christian so hard sometimes? I am constantly struggling with keeping my faith focused on the Cross. I am not going to pretend that losing jobs and struggling in my marriage is something I enjoy. It is not. Even though I am a believer and know the assurances of the Cross and the bible, I still struggle with faithfully following the commands of my Master.
I should take solace in knowing that He is in control but I still stumble and fall and find myself lost. Of course this only brings me back to Him, but it still is hard to feel out of control. I have lost a job again, twice in six months. This is hard. What makes it harder is that my wife is losing faith that God will take us out of this struggle. Not being able to control a situation is a hard thing to deal with. Especially when my secular job is a Manager where I have total control. Of course I know deep down that God has the plan that I can not see, but I am still human and have a hard time with that. I have been struggling with letting go. I have to let go of my job search, my wife, my kids, my anxiety and let God have control. Please pray for my family and I as we are moving to the next chapter of our lives.
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